Archive for September, 2006

Who i left behind

Saturday, September 30th, 2006
I told you once that I would never leave you
That your embrace would be my only source of solitude
I wasn’t happy when I left, I’m still not
Because even miles away, a piece of me longed to retain what used to be.
Because even if fame and fortune lay beneath my feet,
I will still be haunted by you.
And because my love for you is stronger than the espresso’s I drink to drown these tears.

I can drive as fast as I can to run away from this
But sorrow will always find me
I can ride the first plane back just to get out of here
But I can’t
I may have held back when I loved you
I hope I can take that back
But "I can’t" doesn’t mean I loved you less.
Really, I ‘m sorry!

I miss you!
I miss just lying in my back in the garden backyard while I stare at your beauty
I miss your busy streets, the traffic and even the political saga that mirror the hypocrisy of promises they failed to keep.
I miss the friendly faces of people I get to talk to and interact with on a daily basis
I miss the coffee cups I shared with my aunts and niece
I miss your morning breeze
I miss how tagalog sounded like music to my ears
I miss you, my pearl of the orient sea
My Philippines

I promise to remain faithful
To always honor your thought, your abundance and your eternal radiance.
When I come back, we’ll have a long talk of the promises I also failed to keep, I’m sorry.
And I will tell you again how much I missed you..

*for US who miss a place we call HOME*

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Slowing Down

Tuesday, September 26th, 2006

It’s amazing how some of life’s most enlightening discoveries and learnings come to us in small and seemingly inconsequential forms; that even a small blossom, a little scribbled note or an old yet familiar scent could hold so much meaning that for the right person, it can be life-altering.

I can’t help but ponder how many of these little discoveries and learnings we’ve all passed up, overlooked, ignored and disregarded because we’re so wrapped up in our daily grind, either wearing our emotionless masks of determination to meet seemingly impossible deadlines and pursue various career paths or squealing hollow screams as most of us drunkenly gyrate to the throbbing music of our choice on our time off. Unknowingly, we have all allowed ourselves to become so caught up in our own separate yet trivial pursuits of material happiness. Hardly anyone among us could claim spiritual fulfillment in the process. Are we all so preoccupied with our daily routines that we’ve unwittingly let our lives waste away as time passes us by? For that matter, do we even know what really matters anymore?

Perhaps if we took the time to slow down, relax and pay more attention to the
little details, there may yet be hope of rediscovering that which we have taken for granted for a long time: …LIFE. We all have our own personal set of goals and dreams… will our pursuit of these goals make us forget how to live in the process? Every minute wasted is a missed opportunity in life… and I for one, don’t want to end up on top several years from now and realize that I’ve taken so many things for granted along my way… that I have forgotten how to live and enjoy life’s little pleasures in pursuit of my dreams.

While I still can, I don’t want the daily grind to control my life.

While I still can, I want to be able to recognize those seemingly inconsequential moments and things that could yet change my life for me.

While I still can, I want to learn and rediscover myself..

While I still can… I want to live.

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